11.11.10
give me a break.
Today is the last day I'll be dancing for a while. I need a break from it. It doesn't make me happy anymore. When I start to think about what I can focus on that does make me happy... nothing comes to mind. Work doesn't make me happy. Skateboarding doesn't make me happy. Friends are too fair-weather to make me happy. Disneyland doesn't make me happy. I feel like I have all negative things in my life right now. I don't even know how to make myself happy. I can't seem to grasp onto those "little things in life." I feel like I'm stuck in quicksand and I'm just continuing to sink.
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Nothing can "make" you happy. Happiness comes from within. When you learn to be content with yourself, you will create your own happiness. [I know... sounds like a fortune cookie].
ReplyDeleteI take the blame for this one. We always "DID" things to keep us busy, but nothing satisfied. We should have learned to be content with what we had and stopped running after ways to be entertained in our boredom. I'm sorry I let you down in this area.
As much as you will be rolling your eyes on this one.... the only thing that can fill your empty spot of discontent, loneliness, or restlessness, isn't another trip or the lastest fashions, or even that special guy... it's devoting yourself to the passionate pursuit of God.
In this, I failed you, too. I was not a good example, because I didn't know what it was to truly love God. I hadn't even learned to love myself.
I'm sorry! Really sorry. I could have done so much better. I pray that God gives you a revelation of how much He loves you and wants you to be happy. He loves you just as you are and wants only the best for you. So do I, but I will always disappoint you and let you down because only God can supply the things you need.